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A lady with great sense of humour..love to laugh enjoy friends company, choose to live in current moment, forget about yesterday..like what a friend said to me tomorrow is mystery.. Happiness is a voyage...not a destination. "You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free"

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Back To Reality

Festive holiday is coming to an end soon...another 3 days to go !
 
Recent trip back to hometown has been good for me and I feel so relax and much more peaceful ! The children were looked after by my sis's dearest friend, Ping and me and my sisters and parents are able to catch up.

Reality is here now...after 1 week of holiday....I am back to feel it again, the routine.  Since I got back last night, I feel the discomfort inside me, unable to sleep well, torsing here and there.  Spoke to a friend about this, maybe I should move my bed a little.  A little feng shui advice...probably will help ! Thanks for the suggestion !

This year, I feel more positive energy around me and the good vibes and I like to keep them as long as I can.  This little discomfort that I felt last night should not affect my positiveness towards my life.  

While driving back to KL, I have this thought about :

If I could...?
If I have...?

The above will only brings me back to the memory of the past, be it good or bad, thus I think I should not look at the past..and let's move on.   I have a lot of questions bottled up and unable to speak my words, then I thought over, maybe something are meant to keep mum !  There has been event where I wish if I could or I should have...well, by asking this..they are either too late to reverse and already happened.

What has happened is never possible to turn back time...like a friend said to us, he uttered a wrong word during his argument with his wife "the big D" and it is like a toothpaste, once you squeezed out...you can't push it back !

In our life, it is full of IF....and I am no different....hope you like this song !

Gathering during CNY



I havent been back to hometown to celebrate CNY since 2006 and this year, there is no major gathering but a few get together !

I was visiting a friend's house and a few of us met up to gossip...haha all "Pat" ladies !  We were chatting nothing more than updates of where is this friend and their well being.

In the evening, we had another gathering at a "Private" lounge.  Well, unfortunately my kampung is so PAS governed city, there is no entertainment except for a few 24 hours kopitiam with WIFI, the best in town.  The entry to the club is accessible by finger print like those we use to access to our offices.  So canggih right !!

Cosyly set up and not too dark inside, Heineken beer seems to be the favourite of the locals here.  I was the 2nd to arrive, and slowly we have about more than 10 turned up...singing our lung out with some of our old time favourites, updating our life a little here and there.  Seeing some friends who are currently working in KL but never met !  Guess we are too busy with our life and work.  

It was good fun and time flies, I got home around 2.00 am....I don't believe it, Kota Bharu entertainment can keep me up till so "early" in the morning !  

What I feel about friendship is all about being truthful, caring and genuine.  This is what I regard as friend after so many years, though we do not meet as often, but you know who are your true friends.  Through the years of knowing each other, we were once not so close, but come to the end, we are able to sit down and rekindle old times.  

Thanks for being my friends all these years...

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Sunrise @ Tg Jara



It is the 2nd morning of our stay at Tanjung Jara and I have missed the first sunrise.
 
Told my sister to wake me up and I simply can't remember when was the last time I watched sunrise.  And since we are on the east coast of Malaysia, I just don't want to miss it :)

Life is short..never know if this would be the last chance to be by the beach to watch sunrise.  

I woke up and refresh my self and walked to the beach immediately, I didn't want to miss the sunrise and I sat on the beach waiting patiently.   While waiting for the sunrise, I enjoy the early morning vibes looking at the wave washed the shore...so peaceful and relaxing.  My eyes were focussed on the horizon, at 0700 hrs the colour of the sky is shaded by the cloud in light orange...I was a little disappointed thought I have missed the sunrise.  

We walked along the beach towards the rock area and about 20 mins later, the sun in red and yellow colour tones rising from the horizon..and finally that is the sunrise that I was waiting for.  

Waking up at this early hour is well worth it..this is an experience in life.

I like this song very much and I hope you will enjoy it as I do - 陪我看日出 ! 

Being a normal guy

There is a question of being with a normal person !  Is there anything wrong ?

I have been asked many times about this and I find it hard to explain what is wrong to like someone who is so normal.  Normal to me means a man with temperaments, mood, crankiness, caring, funny and loving and etc.  A person as he is and who he is !

When I started to know someone better, I would self reflect and I also asked myself what does he see in me that he is attracted to ?  What is the quality that I possess ?  Very often I regard myself as a normal person and perhaps a little more complicated than other ladies. 

I read this blog below and I find there is something similar to my view.


How deep is your love - Bee Gees

Monday, January 26, 2009

The beginning of a rejuvenated Ox year !



I feel so good today..the first day of Chinese New Year !

In the past, yes I do feel good as always and keeping up with the traditions, as a mother and wife, there is a lot for me to prepare and be excited about the celebration.

However, this year, it is truly a rejuvenated new year !  Joining the holiday makers for a hearty breakfast, freshly blended fruit juices and excellent roti canai by an Indian chef, we adjourned to the beach front.  Breaking the traditions of giving out ang pow in the house, we had the ceremony by the beach with sea breeze blowing against our faces.

We rested by the pool and I fell asleep in my bikini while sun bathing.  And next we were ready for a quick lunch just before our spa therapy.   It is truly rejuvenating and exhilarating experience.  I find the 'Mandi Bunga' was truly meaningful especially on the first day of CNY.  The therapist will recite some suci phrases..eg.  Mandi for Happiness, Longevity, good luck and good health.   I just feel good after this ritual that things will be great for me.

First I had a facial and followed by a scalp treatment using all pure herbs and ingredient.  I feel really good to be back to basic and nothing chemical on my hair for once.

Then, it was my turn for the traditional massage and lastly the most exciting part of the treatment was the Rendam-Rendam supposedly good for woman.  It is a treatment contributing to wellness of the genital organs and firmness of vaginal muscles as the age......Well, it is normally done after childbirth and menstruation.   Typically living in the city, we find the natural healing method is too troublesome, and this afternoon, soaking myself in some herbal concoction in the open air bath tub, looking up at the clear blue sky accompanied by the sound of the wave ...hmmm, so relaxing.

And here comes the last part, seating on a hot stone..gosh, I have done many hot stone massages but never sat on one.  Well...hopefully it really works on me.

Not forgetting, we were served jamu drink to begin and to end the whole treatment session.

Though I couldn't feel the atmosphere of celebrating Chinese New Year, but I feel so relax and well rested.   Comparing to my recent working trip to Penang staying at another 5 star resort, I recalled I had a walk on the beach, but the feeling is totally different.  I was tensed and couldn't feel myself was actually in the resort.   Obviously, being away with my children and family and with my client do have a "big" different.

It is a great day for me...

新年快乐, 心想事成






恭喜发财,新年快乐 !

This new year is exceptionally different..for the very first time, we had buffet dinner and we are celebrating in a resort.  It is a family reunion cum retreat for all at Tg Jara.   Seems like this new year is all about driving from West Coast to East Coast via innerland, and this morning was another drive on the coastal road.

I have never spent an afternoon by the beach on Chinese New Year's Eve, playing sand castle with children and kite flying on the beach front of South China Sea.  It is so relaxing and I hope this is a good sign as an intro of a less stressful year for all.

Just before the countdown, all of us crowd in one room, waiting for the count down, playing game with the kids, so much laughter filled the air, and I truly hope this is the life I will be blessed with this year.    As the clock hit 00.00 hrs, we hugged each other, wishing everyone the best of what we desire for this year....

Reflecting what we have achieved last year, my sis shared her best accomplishment is saving a couple from a possible failure in marriage..well, for me though I didnt have time to share, but I think my personal achievement is I am stronger and have more courage to lead my life.

I think I have considered myself lucky and blessed with great health.  It has been a safe year for me and the family and I count the blessing.   Though I had been through ups and down tremendously for the past one year, but I do feel the encouragement from the family and friends had kept me strong and I believe the coming year will be a great year for me.

I hope for a smooth year ahead of me, great health and happiness to all.  

Metta kindness to all !  Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu !

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Driving back to Kota Bharu for CNY

Hey..I got home safely !

It was supposed to be an early morning drive, but hmmm..I couldn't wake up as early as planned so decided to take it easy, don't want to pressure myself.  And after a roti canai breakfast, drove my car to the mechanic for final checking, then we started our journey. 

The drive was smooth, kids were doing well in the car, they ate, played games and slept along the way.  Driving pass different towns like Bentong, Kuala Lipis, passing by rugged and kampung route, a little bumpy rides till we get to Gua Musang, then Kuala Krai.  Had a brief stop for lunch...I needed to stretch my legs and have a teh-ice.   

Journey continued and I am glad the drive only took me 6 hours and I have arrived safely.


It is always nice to be back and I feel so relax here and been eating
 non stop..bought some local food like "nasi tupe" which is Nasi Tumpang - rice packed in cone-shaped in banana leaf.  It comes with either a small
 piece of fish, a shrimp curry with one or two tiny shrimp and a tiny portion of sambal !

We had dinner and lo-sang at this new restaurant which is located about 15 kms away from town towards Tumpat, it is called Orchard Garden.  Maybe Kota Bharu is very small, it seems like  a long drive, passing by
 padi fields with limited street light to get there.
After dinner, we went to the new year night market.  Chinese families are seen busy buying food stuff to prepare for reunion dinner, fresh flowers and some delicacies for new year.   

Then passing by my favourite "colek" stall - bought 8 types of preserved fruit and some fresh cut fruits like guava, jambu and pineapple.  It is kinda like rojak but the Kelantanese way.  Very delicious and you can also dip the keropok with the same sauce, and if you can take spicy...go for a double spicy sauce.

The evening would not be complete till we have our supper for some local light snacks and drinks at new Hayaki Cafe.  The de place for many malays who bring their laptop for free wi fi chatting.

It was a real long and tiring day for me...but a good reunion !

Thursday, January 22, 2009

I will remember you


This is not a poem written by me, I just enjoy listening to this song and they are meaningful in someway !  Somehow this part of my life seems more meaningful and colourful!  Everday is a beautiful day and people walked pass me and left some memories bitter and sweet, but at the end of the day whether things would work out or not, I wil remember you who touched my life !

I Will Remember You 

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories


Wednesday, January 21, 2009

CNY Preparation


Year in year out, again it is time to prepare for the most important festival for Chinese..the beginning of the lunar new year 2009 !

Last year, we were away for a short break in Hong Kong, then I remember the preparation was more of packing adequate winter clothing for the children.  Of course,  not forgetting some of the local food stuff that my sis ordered.  I remember how we cramped into her small studio apartment.   We simply do not feel the inconvenience and the children had their very first visit to Disneyland Hong Kong.

This year, we are not making any plan to travel out of country, but instead back to the tradition of visiting my parents...balik kampung !  The last time I went back to my hometown to celebrate CNY was 2006 and this would be my very first CNY driving back alone.  Honestly I feel nervous thinking of the long distance driving during festival.  The driving can stretch to 10 hours instead of 7 hours.

Since I was away again last weekend, I just did some last minute shopping to stock up the necessity.  My mom has taught me this since young.....it is a sign of prosperity.   Usually I would buy some plants too, but since I will be away, the plants would have died before I get home and I "pantang" that is not a good sign.  So I decided to buy fake flowers just to brighten up the house.  Maybe when I come back, I will get some fresh flowers from my favourite pakcik in SS2 market.  Cheap orchid that lasts at least 2 weeks.

Today has been a long evening for me, did so many things just to prepare for the CNY.  Just like many others who were at the mall for last minutes shopping and the mall opens till 11 pm.  Bought some snacks for the children to prepare them for the long distance journey. Brought back some cookies from my regular supplier, my son has already started with pineapple tarts and finished up a packet of the fortune cookies, looks like they have all the fortune from me...haha  !  

I am tired and having a real bad headache...and I need to prepare myself for balik kampung..got to sleep well !

May you be blessed with happiness, great health and abundance of wealth.  

Anumodana ~ rejoicing together for a great year ahead...and thank you for a blessed year !

Chinese new year is just a few days away...let's get into the mood ! 

鄧麗君 Teresa Teng 迎春花 Flowers That Welcome The Spring

鄧麗君 Teresa Teng 贺新年 New Year Blessings

Greatest Blessing


Some one sent me this greatest blessing and thought it would be nice to share with you :

To support mother and father, 
to cherish wife and children, 
and to be engaged in peaceful occupation - 
this is the greatest blessing.

To be generous in giving, 
to be righteous in conduct, 
to help one's relatives, 
and to be blameless in action -
this is the greatest blessing.

To be respectful, 
humble, contented and grateful; 
and to listen to the Dhamma on due occassions - 
this is the greatest blessing.

The Buddha's Discourse on Great Blessings

I just called to say I love you

Hi everyone ! Hope you are doing well !

I have been away for the past few days, and I have so much to update in my blog about my trip, my thoughts and everything.

It has been a long day for me, flight delayed for more than 4 hours and supposed a half day event has stretched to full day !  Very tired but on the way home, I was listening to this song by Stevie Wonder - "I just called to say I love you".  A song that we may have forgotten, but 3 words that we will never forget to say to someone we love.

This song is not new to anyone.  It is such a blissful song !  I remember I used to say this 3 words to someone I truly loved and each time when I say these 3 words..it is always so sweet in side my heart.  I wonder if anyone would complain too much to receive ?

I certainly won't as I always feel when you are loved...especially when certain affirmation is felt with true feeling...it is so sweet.   

Let's enjoy the song...I just called to say I love you !



Friday, January 16, 2009

I Need To Be In Love

While I was looking for the Top of the world, I found this other song by The Carpenters...

It is so sentimental and the lyric speaks a thousand word of how one feels in life !  

I need to be in love - The Carpenters


The hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing
There's someone in this crazy world for me
The way that people come and go through temporary lives
My chance could come and I might never know

I used to say " No promises, let's keep it simple"
But freedom only helps you say goodbye
It took a while to learn that nothing comes for free
The price I paid is high enough for me

* I know I need to be in love
I know I've wasted too much time
I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world
And fool enough to think that's what I'll find

+ So here I am with pockets full of good intentions
But none of them will comfort me tonight
I'm wide awake at 4 am without a friend in sight
I'm hanging on a hope but I'm alright

Repeat *
Repeat +
Repeat *

Top Of The World

I guess all of you have heard of this song before.   
 
I heard it again today and was singing along with it. I recalled during school days, I sang this during a talent performance.   Back then, I sang this song is because it is easy to sing.  

Today when I heard it again, though it is not a new song, I listen to the lyrics carefully, it seems true when you feel loved, the love does put one on top of the world.  And this day is through, I hope tomorrow will be the same for you and me !  Always looking forward to another good day being together !  Do you think so ??

I am always very happy when I sing this song, maybe the melody is nice and lively.  It lifts up my mood and put a smile on my face.  

Suddenly I feel so old caused the song is sang by The Carpenters....haha! 

I hope you feel the same as I do..smile always !


Top of the world - The Carpenters

Thursday, January 15, 2009

A simple question

Will you still love me ?
A simple question
An indefinite waiting
For an answer won't be heard 
From a person in her heart
To the woman who gave her heart !

Will you still love me tomorrow ?童安格 - 明天你是否依然愛我

My phone ring tone

I just love this song and I have used this as my phone ring tone for months now, and never tired of listening to it every day when I received a call !

And I have many caller ring tone too, some friends just love my ring tone, and even told me they like to call me just to listen to my choice of song.. haha !  I better off becoming a DJ !

Hope you like this song, I like this artiste Joi Chua from Singapore, she has a few other songs, very melodious and she has a good voice.

蔡淳佳 ~《恋之憩》

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I will be careful with my heart

"Please be careful with my heart".  

Do we really need to remind each other of this ?  Well, I feel not when you are truly in love and the last thing you want is to hurt each other in a sincere relationship !  Again, if this song is not written or sang, we tend to take for granted as no reminder !

I think it makes more sense to me that "I will be careful with my heart" and it is not asking the other person to be careful with my heart.  Peoples tend to be selfish protecting their own heart and feeling, fearing from being hurt if it has to end or situation got out of hand. Especially when the other person is less sensitive towards the relationship.  

I have been through it and I just don't want to get hurt again.  The emotional melodrama has contributed so much stress on me.  Some friends said be careful and sure before you go into it..ok, both seems sure, fallen in love naturally, enjoying very much the companionship but how could you tell if this relationship will end tomorrow ? Sigh...

Sorry to have written such post, maybe is because I truly have given my true feeling and I respected his wish.  Yet I care too much of his heart and feeling that the pain is on me leaving me feeling miserable.

So, I will be careful with my heart..

This is a cute  song but it means a lot......enjoy !

Quit Playing Games With My Heart

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Take a different way



This evening is just another routine of my working day, packed my laptop, heading my way to car park, plug in my ipod..home sweet home.

I will take the normal way to go home as usual but strangely I decided to take alternative way, interestingly to my surprise, this road is clear and I don't have to spend 20 mins struggling my way through a narrow U-turn due to cars that stopped at yellow box.

The decision to take the other way opened up my thoughts, see everyday I take the same way that I find them so stressful but today this "new" way brought me some relief.   Which means in life why do we insist on doing something that we couldn't get ourself out of the box, feeling depressed, and dwell into something of the past, why not try something different, we may find surprises perhaps something compelling to our life ??

I am glad I took this road, I feel better.  I have learnt that it is always the simplest mind that has the clearest vision.  Don't complicate our mind, fearing for something unnecessary !

Choice vs Timing



Have you ever consider the choice/decision you made is right at the right time ?

We feel is right, we decide and again the timing plays an important factor.  In our daily life, we have a lot of choices to decide,  when we shop, we choose and pick, the coffee or tea of our choice, searching for job, we also face the same situation.  Even in relationship, we meet someone we think is the right one, we decided to open up and accept.   But sometimes, we have other priority in life,  we  wait and hopeful for someone better to come to our life, and let the right one slips away without knowing.  That happened too.  I remember I do have many choices before but I chose him, because timing was a factor he took the initiative to be part of my life.





















Once someone told me "He is a good man but undecisive, and the way things are going on...he will loose you".  I guess the same applies to me, I may have a good choice, but if I do not make the choice at the right time...it equals nothing.


There is a saying, Nothing in life is written in stone..a reminder that things change, life is full of surprises.  I go by my instinct still...so far so good :-)

What is your comments ??

Monday, January 12, 2009

A tired day


Got home almost midnight last night after a retimed flight...

Very tired after deprieving from sleep for the past few nights...also partly my own fault of sleeping disorder lately.  

I could feel my eye lids are so heavy and sensation of heat inside my eyes.  I am not young any more, I really have to take care of myself for the sake of a better life for me and my children.

And this evening, after a short rain in town, traffic was bad, car broke down narrowing the lanes, caused traffic congestion......and worst is I was driving with severe headache.

Thank god that I didn't doze off and got home safely...

I am tired...my bed and pillow is what I need ! 

Good night...sweet dream to all :-)

Crazy mom

Since I was away in Penang over the weekend, my children's routine had to be planned ahead so that I have someone to drive them for the classes.  So managed to sort things out, thanked to my dad, sis and Sue who had given a relief to my life.

On normal days if I am not traveling, my weekend is usually shopping for perishable at wet market and  grocers from supermarket.  As I got home today, my maid told me, there is no vegetable left in the fridge and dry cleaning needs to be picked up. And I have other errants to be done before the CNY,  getting cookies from my regular supplier and CNY delights from the market.

Just one weekend away, I have so much to catch up.....what a life !! Can it be better ??  And I am due to travel again..this time I can't get anyone to do the same.....what is going to happen to my poor kids ??? 

I told my son about this and he said "Mom, I will be the only boy at home, it will be fine"  Trust him or not.....haha !

Sigh :(  It is a crazy life !

Love is letting go of fear


I found this song when I was walking at night market in Penang, bought this pirated CD...ooops ! I listened to a few other Buddhism songs in Olivia Newton John's Grace and Gratitude album, and this one really captured me. 

We all been through painful memories and only if we are able to step out of it and stand up again, our life will be different.   I have been through, I fell and I stood up, I became wiser, have more wisdom and I hope to be stronger and learn from the experience.    It is impossible to turn back time, I can only create the next chance a better one that I have failed.

"Experience is simply the name we give our mistake" ~ Oscar Wilde.  Make any sense to you ???

I like to dedicate this song to all who is in the same emotional trap, hope you will join me, have the courage and continue to love and live to the fullest.  



The pain is something that you can't igonore
You're always wondering what the hurt is for
Your heart feels something that it can't explain
You yearn for love but you're afraid to change
Remember the wounded bird still sings
Remember the faith has tiny wings

CHORUS
Love is letting go of fear
Love is letting go of doubt
Love is letting go
The chains that tie your spirit down and
Love is letting go of pain
Love is learning how to dance
Inside the light again

You're always haunted by the love you've lost
You're scared that you'll forever pay the cost
You believe this is the bitter end
Better lonely than be hurt again
Remember there is always one more chance
Remember that love's the only dance and

CHORUS

B'chol naf-shah (With all your heat)
B'chol l'vav-chah (With all your soul)
B'chol m'ode-chah (with all your might)

Letting go..

Friday, January 9, 2009

You are always in my heart



I have found you by chance
A chance that is so unbelievable
A secret prayer from you
Answered and brought us together

It has been months since we last spoken
My love, as I sit here thinking of you
Which is something I often do
Missing our laughters that is simple yet sweet

It has been lonely without you
Missing something some how
All the time when we are apart
I miss you terribly, but it is still okay

For I carry you in my heart !

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I will love again

Will I love again !? Good question..the answer is listen to the song.  

Actually I don't see why I should stop loving, love is miracle and love is so powerful that it brings everyone so much joy.  
When it touches someone heart, you will feel the energy and all things just fall into place, even make a person 
change for better !

But, please don't play with this love...and treat this love with kindness
Able to be loved and to share the love is a wonderful thing
and it can be painful and hurtful when it breaks.

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love can be simply awful.
Love comes with pain, why did I still love so much !

I will love again - Lara Fabian

Did I ever tell you how you live in me
Every waking moment, even in my dreams
And if all this talk is crazy
And you don't know what I mean
Does it really matter
Just as long as I believe
[Chorus:]
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking, I will
love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows, I will love again
People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for real
So if all this talk sounds crazy
And the words don't come out right
Does it really matter
If it gets me through this night
[Chorus]
If I'm true to myself, nobody else can take the place of you
But I've got to move on, tell me what else can I do
[Chorus]
I will love again
One day I know, I will love again
You can't stop me from loving again, breathing again
Feeling again
I know, one day, I'll love again

In the mood for love

In the mood for love..just have so much to express..so much to write but feels tired lately.  So I pick up a few songs and each song has great meaning to me :

A love so beautiful - Michael Bolton
The summer sun went down on our love long ago
But in my heart I feel the same old afterglow
A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful we let it slip away

We were all too young to understand to ever know
That lovers drift apart and thats the way love goes
A love so beautiful a love so free
A love so beautiful a love for you and me

And when I think of you I fall in love again
A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful we let it slip away

And when I think of you I fall in love again
A love so beautiful we let it slip away
A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful we let it slip away



The Miracle of love - Eurythmics

How many sorrows
Do you try to hide
In a world of illusion
That's covering your mind
I'll show you something good

Oh I'll show you something good
When you open your mind
You'll discover the sign
That there's something
You're longing to find...

The miracle of love
Will take away your pain
When the miracle of love
Comes your way again.

Cruel is the night
That covers up your fears.
Tender is the one
That wipes away your tears.
There must be a bitter breeze
To make you sting so viciously
They say the greatest coward

Can hurt the most ferociously.
But I'll show you something good
Oh I'll show you something good
If you open your heart
You can make a new start
When your crumbling world falls apart.

(Chorus repeats...)


If we hold on together - Diana Ross

Don't lose your way 
With each passing day 
You've come so far 

Don't throw it away 
Live believing 
Dreams are for weaving 
Wonders are waiting to start 
Live your story 
Faith, hope & glory 
Hold to the truth in your heart 

If we hold on together 
I know our dreams will never die 
Dreams see us through to forever 
Where clouds roll by 
For you and I 

Souls in the wind 
Must learn how to bend 
Seek out a star 
Hold on to the end 
Valley, mountain 
There is a fountain 
Washes our tears all away 
Words are swaying 
Someone is praying 
Please let
us come home to stay 

If we hold on together 
I know our dreams will never die 
Dreams see us through to forever 
Where clouds roll by 
For you and I 

When we are out there in the dark 
We'll dream about the sun 
In the dark we'll feel the light 
Warm our hearts, everyone 

If we hold on together 
I know our dreams will never die 
Dreams see us through to forever 
As high as souls can fly 
The clouds roll by 
For you and I



Speak softly love - Andy Williams
Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
Were in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one
Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one
Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love



Love Story (Where do I begin) - Andy Williams

Where do I begin
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave new meaning to this empty world of mine
There'll never be another love, another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs , with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That everywhere I go I'm never lonely
With you my love, who could be lonely
I reach for her hand-it's always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all burn away
And she'll be there




The Great Pretender

Friends around me kept saying I am real good pretender !  Guess this is the way I hide my emotions in the past !

Show the brave face like nothing happened, but actually they know well that I am unhappy, sad and grief over many things that seems not working the way it should be.   Friends asked me why do I pretend or hide, let it out and confront them...and I should feel better...but on the other hand,  maybe it is just my nature that I dislike troubling others with my own problem.

Honestly I don't want to pretend, I never want to anyway. I am tired of this and I am sick of showing fake expressions.  Hiding my true feeling and emotions inside my heart can be real pain, hugging the pillow, talk to my pillow angel......ouch ouch !

I sounded so negative in my post...maybe once this is written down, I know I don't have to fake anymore pretending I am fine cos I am really not fine sometimes only la.

Okay...final line for this post, I am ok now..haha so fake again :-)

Lastly a few lovely songs from The Platters to share with you ! 

The Great Pretender


Only You


I m sorry


Smoke gets in your eyes

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

我好累 ~ 快樂的一刻 勝過永恆的難過 !

我好累 ! 你们不累吗!现在的生活,每天就是忙,忙,忙!周华建也有这么一首歌!

是我不懂得安排时间呢!还是我切实是很累!? 我感受的累不是身体的疲惫,因为睡眠能够调理, 而是我心理上的经历, 那种的累! 

为家庭,为工作,为了钱,为了感情,为了孩子还有为了自己!

今天和一位朋友吃午餐,聊了一些感情事。我们谈了身为一个小女人也不错, 为什么要那么辛苦,要那么逞强,有时候觉得身边有个伴,听听我们的唠叨,哄我们,让我们撒娇不好吗?为什么就是那么不容易满足!

想想了,爱一个人也是不容易,  因为爱,不小心放太多了,反而自己受到伤害,好不容易,想放开了,但又怀念一段回忆。有一点心疼。。这时候,有一点的矛盾,到底有个伴好,还是有好多朋友好!我总觉得,有时候还是需要一位身边的好知己,  或是一位性情相投的人soulmate !

那我应该再爱还是不爱好呢?蔡淳佳的这首歌,是我的心声!快樂的一刻勝過永恆的难過“ 希望你们喜欢!


慶幸有你愛我 

失去和擁有 剎那的感動 
人生有時候像一場夢 
醒著的時候 睜開了雙眸 
不如意的很多 

朋友和情人 來的來走的走 
反反覆覆 尋尋覓覓 為了什麼 
要多少時間 才能夠了解 
其實 有你就足夠 

握著你的手 走過快樂和難過 
黑夜白晝我們都曾經擁有 
人生是沒有定律的一種節奏 不如用心去感受 

快樂的一刻 勝過永恆的難過 
黑夜過後就有日出和日落 
兩個人走不會寂寞 每一刻都會珍惜 
都會把握 慶幸有你愛我 

失去和擁有 淚水和笑容 
人生有時候像一場夢 
累了的時候 閉上的雙眸 誰在回憶上游 

多少的朋友 來的來走的走 
聚散從來都不給任何的理由 
轉過身以後 才忽然感受 你一直都在背後 

握著你的手 走過快樂和難過 
黑夜白晝每個人都會擁有 
人生是沒有定律的一種節奏 不如用心去感受 

快樂的一刻 勝過永恆的難過 
黑夜過後就有日出和日落 
兩個人走不會寂寞 每一刻都會珍惜 
都會把握 慶幸有你愛我 

握著你的手 走過快樂和難過 
黑夜白晝每個人都會擁有 
人生是沒有定律的一種節奏 不必在乎得太多 

快樂的一刻 勝過永恆的難過 
黑夜過後就有日出和日落 
只要和你一起度過 人生沒幾人懂我 
懂得把握 慶幸有你 愛我 

Monday, January 5, 2009

Wonderful World

Many years ago, I was doing some direct selling which I was really active and really happy meeting people and share the ideas of the business.  A lot of demonstration to be done, train the people and it was good fun then and met many friends. I was promoted and I chose Wonderful World as my team name.

Perhaps it is all about my perception, I like the thing around me to be as wonderful as possible, even till now, I am still very hopeful to create a wonderful world around me.  I search through youtube and found the following few versions of songs related to Wonderful World.  I like the video by James Morrison, especially the drawing on the video as it reminds me of a friend who has drawn something for me that we had a such a good laugh !

Wonderful World - Hermans Hermits


What a wonderful world - Louis Armstrong


What a wonderful world - Celine Dion


Wonderful World - James Morrison

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