Single Mom's Chat

I met up with a single mom, a friend whom I haven't met for years and it was a good catch up.

 

We are both single but for different reasons.  She lost her husband due to illness and I guess I don't have to explain my side of the story.

We asked each other on how we cope with life, she has 2 children and I have 3 ! She said, it is tough life and yours are handful !  We agreed on so many things, we tried and still trying each and every day to cope with the dynamic life ahead of us.  We coped and we have done well...cheers to us being a woman !  

Actually, it is not easy being a mother..be it a single mom or happily married ones.  Those still married, have to deal with the emotions of their husband..so considering lucky that the divorced woman has headache at least.  

It is probably the characteristic of a single mom, you may not agree with me but we both think we can manage and we have handled our life well, portraying an image of a very independent woman.   It comes a time where we felt we have to manage all by ourselves...and this is what happened to me at times, I try my best to organise my weekends, by filling in my own activities even the slightest time I have.   And when I can't get things done, I get upset with myself and it stressed me up.

Of late, I think it is just another cycle of my life, though it hasn't been great as I wished but I beginning to accept and I am letting go and compromised with it when I know I can't handle it.  I have asked for help with friends whom I have never ever asked before, and it is somehow my nature that if I can manage, I will not trouble anyone.  But my gf reminded me, perhaps by asking for that favour, your friend will feel great to help you out !  Probably yes !

At the end of our chat, no matter how strong and resilient we have portrayed to the world, admittedly we still feel tired and stressful and sometimes suffocating after a long period of downs and we do feel lonely and needed a shoulder to lean on, a good listener when we need to talk to someone about our work, life and etc.  Even someone we can call for a cuppa or movie just to relax !  We need that break from the kids...she is luckier than me, her in-laws and family are here !

She being a Christian, she shared something she learnt from the bible....thanks and it is comforting and I appreciate that !

There is really no scale where we can measure if I have been a good mom..otherwise I think I would have broken down and God knows what will happen to my 3 little darlings.  I do what I can for them and provide them the best love I could as a mother !

I guess this is all about what life is !?? 

It is never too late for a 2nd Chance

On a quiet Saturday night, no date for movie at the cinema, I decided to watch another great love movie...Nights in Rodanthe ! 

It is amazingly another good movie, especially acted by Richard Gere, I usually won't miss his movie !  

The story is about Adrienne, her husband has hurt her and now seeking to return into her life.  And she met Paul who was the only guest staying in a romantic blue inn by the beach where she was helping her friend to manage the place.  It started with a tender romance..and Paul  found her to be an exceptional woman whereby her husband obviously didn't realise it before and left her for a younger lady.

So this is 2nd chance for both of them, and they met by chance and found a different kind of love. She loves her husband is because of he is father of her children.  But the love that she found in Paul is so uniquely different, this is how she explained to her daughter the kind of love :

"But there is another kind of love, one that gives you the courage to be better than you are, not less than you are, one that makes you feel everything is possible, I want you to know that you can have that, i want you to hold out for it and i want you to know you deserve it !"

I like the part when they exchanged love letters, she rejoiced in receiving those love letters.  The romance was intense and "head over heels" sort of !

Unfortunately it is a sad ending, but getting to know each other has saved others to appreciate and understand the person whom they dearly loved.

Somehow watching this movie tells some real life chords of my life......honestly I was crying and rather emotional throughout.   There is this part where she was sobbing....and my children ran out from their room thinking I was actually crying.   Jordan said, mom sounded like you when you cried....lol funny right, but just imagine how sensitive they can be towards my crying !

Probably one day, when  children grow up, they will understand what happened between me and their father, and my life after !  Second chance...will it be better ?? 

Sex and the city

It seems a little delay for me to watch this movie as it was shown last year, but I just bought the DVD.

Tonight, after a long day work, came home played with my 3 darlings, sat down on the couch I watched the movie while enjoying home cook dinner, fried fish and my very home grown sauce "budu".  This is our family favourite right to my little girl who will be turning three in 2 days time.   If you do not know what that is, it is like you must have a bottle of soya sauce and we must have budu !  I could have used my hands if there was ulam then...haha !

I really enjoyed the movie, seeing the 40s and their life, went through different stages, realising what is more important, seeking LOVE even is for our self.    There is no logic, it is just love !  So true !  What can love do to a person ?? Will you smile again after broken hearted ???  After a marriage is betrayed, can you trust the person again ?  It is about 2 persons seeking the love again as both are unsure if it will be the same before !  The ultimate truth of what love is for the two of them !

This is one of the love letter / poem in the movie :

Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence 

can we achieve our purpose to live together - 

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - 

what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. 

Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. 

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

When I look at Carrie while she was in the most devastated look, I began to think was I like that ?  Do I look that awful then ? And seeing her friends around her supporting her reminds me of how my family and friends who stayed by me when I went through the pain and crying days ! I must admit that someone actually touched my life and brought back that smile on me.  I love you all, my parents, sisters, my 3 darlings and friends !  

Love is an act of endless forgiveness

~ Peter Ustinov

To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides

~ David Viscott

Won a holiday package

So happy, I have won a holiday package to Shangri-la Rasa Ria Resort, Kota Kinabalu, though is just one night, but also excited !  Winning something is always happy, like lucky draw and etc !

I have been to Sabah a few times, but haven't been to Shangri-la Rasa Ria.

 

I think I deserve a good vacation soon ! I have to start checking on Air Asia for cheap flight since I have a voucher to redeem for free flight !  And now, my colleague is offering to sell his free night stay in Kota Kinabalu, hmmm I think my vacation is coming through very soon !

Now, I got to think who to bring along ? 

KK...here I come !

Oral Hygiene

How much do we know about oral care and hygiene ?  

This morning I was in a meeting with a Prof from UKM Dentistry Department, and before our meeting commenced, she gave us valuable knowledge about our mouth !  

You are not going to believe this, maybe I am ignorant about this information, at any moment, there is 200 million of bacteria in our mouth, consisting of 30 species.    Some of the bacteria are good ones, and they should stay inside our mouth.  And we asked Prof how to prevent bad breathe in the morning, we are convinced by the power of commercial such like using Listerine,  and this is just temporarily measure to freshen the breathe.  And in fact if you rinsed more than twice a day, you will get dry mouth, which mean you are loosing the natural lubricant !

We joked about the passing of bacteria when you are kissing someone...haha !  Hopefully only the good bacteria are passed on !

So, the best is to keep our oral hygiene well.  For example, brushing your teeth after every meal, she commented Malaysian are general less hygienic in this case as we love to leave the after food taste in our mouth ! 

When you wake up and you realised your breathe is bad, it is also a sign of your toxic level in your body is high !

So, do something about it, don't wait till you feel the tooth ache and it is never too late to start now even you are already using denture.

A smile can brighten the darkest day. 

A smile is a powerful weapon; 

you can even break ice with it. 

What to eat ?

TGIF...Thank God is Friday...and some couples or family will plan their weekend makan2...something to laugh to end the week !

Either one will be "Bin Oh Oh" literally means "Black Face"

The End 

Intoxicated

I was chatting with a friend who told me his relationship with friends he met on the net.

He actually went out with one a few times, and they had intimate relationship !  After a few datings, he dislike her as she got herself so drunk and not even sure of what she was doing !  The last time she asked him out, he insisted that they were not going to drink, but she refused, so they never met since then.  They went separate ways after that !  

I remember once a friend asked me why do I drink ?  Is it out of frustration ?  Actually not at all, no matter how unhappy I was when my life was so messy going through the rough patch then, I have not consumed any alcohol.   

Nowadays I drink socially with friends or client, it is never for the reason being UNHAPPY ! 

I am always in control of myself, I have never embarassed myself or even looked drunk.  I may get a little tipsy or high so to speak, but I just won't do anything beyond what I should !  I usually will enjoy drinking with the right company or someone that I trust is around me !

I beginning to ask myself..why must she get intoxicated that she is completely unaware of what is happening !?  She could have been molested or worst rape ??!!   I thought she is young, I was wrong, she is in her 40s, single and she couldn't let go of her past love with her ex...and she drown herself into drinking..what a silly woman !

I think as a lady we should have some value for ourself !  I feel sorry seeing friends who went through bad relationship, broken hearted and get drunk just to end the day !  When you wake up the next day, you still miss him nevertheless, and are you going to get drunk again ?

Maybe I am more resilient facing my life, been through pain, betrayal, hurtful days, crying days you named it what you see in the movie when a relationship is broken...haha sounded very dramatic.   Not so bad la...just kidding !

The fact is life goes on....you just don't know what lies ahead of you, take one step at a time and here I am still seeking True Love ...the one who appreciates me and accept me unconditionally as I would do the same for him !  

Always Be My Baby

Tonight I spent so much on the net surfing and trying to get some work done. And listening to this song..both versions ! The feeling is different sang by different artiste.

Not too sure if you agree with me...David Cook's version seems more romantic, and can make one cry listening to it, and Mariah Carey's is more lively and seems more positive in the relationship !

Just my view....but it is a lovely song and the lyric is so meaningful ! I appreciate the work done by great artiste and song writers.

Good night and sweet dream !

My best buddy inspires me to cook again

I have many good friends whom we have known each other since we were kids in primary.  And I still have many that we are still in touch, and I have one very good buddy whom I shared almost anything with her.  

Some part of my stories, she probably only found out recently but she is a true friend who can accept me as I am and who will not desert me due to my past.

She is the first person to know about what happened to my personal life, work, family and my romance.  She stands by me and give me the encouragement.

We usually meet for lunch whenever we are available, as she is a very successful career woman and we are both occupied in the evening for family and other obligations.

Why do I write about her ?  We spoke about cooking for our loved one and she said her daughter said something meaningful to her after she started to cook for the family..."Mama, since you cook for us, I feel the sense of closeness in the home".  This phrase has an effect on me....haha !  I seriously think I have to cook again !  And she said her husband feels happy to be home to enjoy her cooking which reminds him of his younger day before married..enjoying his mom's cooking !

Recently I posted "I am inspired to cook again", I was thinking a lot about cooking again, the excuse for not cooking was the kids are still young and they will not enjoy, actually my son is no longer a small boy, he is turning 10 in 2 weeks time, and he has good appetite for food !

So, during lunch, we exchanged some cooking ideas and the funny thing is she has creative ideas on recipe but I have better knowledge on cooking techniques..it is actually a good combination !

Actually..I love to cook maybe I should start cooking again, just need to reschedule my weekend routine and leave me sometime to work in the kitchen !

I used to enjoy the unpacking and cleaning and washing after wet market shopping...and I usually will prepare the ingredient and portion them into container.  It helps to speed up the defrosting process and less wastage.  I was really organised and I need to keep it up again !

Yes, I am inspired to cook again and it will start from this weekend !  Nothing fancy, just me cooking for my little darlings !

Working Out

I don't have many working out plan except for my regular walk in the compound where I live.

This morning, I did 3 rounds which I normally would do 4 rounds, never calculate the distance but good enough to sweat out, and I enjoy walking the steps at least 75 steps up and 75 down.

Since I started walking, my health condition has improved, everything is ok including cholestrol level and I am happy about it.

Last night, a chinese sin-seh did a pulse reading, she said "you are healthy except for some indigestion problem" and that is why I am getting a few acne on the jaw line! So, I think I need to detox my system a bit more.  Actually I am conscious with what I eat...every morning, I will start with a freshly blended fruit or veg juice !

My buddy told me her cholestrol is on the higher side...and that worries her very much.  I encourage her to do some work out like what I did.....guess what, her excuse for not working out much is something we both shared in common...haha..not going to write here.

When I was in my early 20s, I used to go to the gym with my housemate, he was very keen in getting his 6-packs...and we went to this gym in SS2, and after a few months, we stopped and I actually can't remember why and what happened !

Anyway, I have received many calls from fitness centre like True Fitness and they are given freebies like free trial !  I am still considering if I should go for it..!  What do you think ? Any hidden agenda after I have taken the trial package ??

Arrivederci Roma

I started humming this song during the cocktail...lol, and the cocktail has nothing to do with Rome !

Probably is due to Andrea Bocelli's song,  not Italian either, maybe is his voice that brought back the memory of this lovely song !

Visiting Rome is something I will not forget, I just love Italy as a whole and it is still in my dream to revisit Rome and some cities that I have not visited.

I remember our local driver whose name is Francesco, a bald-headed very shy young man who speaks very little English, he drove us all over the city during our stay there !  And on the departure day, he gave us "Bacio" which mean a kiss...on the cheeks!

Arrivederci Roma is a folk song and everyone in Rome should know how to sing !  I remember we were in this tiny restaurant, enjoying pasta and Italian dishes, an old Italian man with his guitar started to serenade this song !  While enjoying the dinner, we were entertained...and we bought the CD !

However, when I listened to it again back home...it is just not as good as when I was there !

I think I have to visit Italy for the 3rd time and to listen to this song again....funny somehow listening to the song in Rome was so romantic !

Another great love song

Heavy rain pouring in town, traffic is a real madness !

The thought of driving, is a real night mare 

While waiting for the cocktail to start

Just listening to this song on Youtube is so relaxing !

Downloading a few Andrea Bocelli's songs to my ipod 

Keep me company while driving home !

Something to entertain and keep me happy :-)

Hope you like it too !

Have a pleasant evening !

Rest well...for a good start tomorrow !

It is Thursday again...another good day for me !

Fallen for you

Waking up with memories of you  

Memory of moments we shared flashing all over again ! 

I don't know why...it just lingers on !

our laughters

our first date

our first movie 

our first kiss 

our time together

through our chat

we became closer

through understanding

we became intimate

 

I have fallen for you !

不错的十句话...

I received this from my buddy and it is meaningful !

> 第一句 

沒有一百分的另一半　

只有五十分的兩個人
  

> 第二句 

付出真心　才會得到真心　卻也可能傷得徹底 

保持距離　就能保護自己　卻也註定永遠寂寞
 
 
> 第三句 

通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人　才是真正愛你的人 
 

> 第四句 

有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重 


> 第五句 

冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具 


> 第六句 

如果我們之間有1000步的距離  你只要跨出第1步  

我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步
 
 
> 第七句 
 
為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人 

為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友 

為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人
 
  
> 第八句 

就算是 believe　中間也藏了一個 lie 
 
     
> 第九句 

真正的好朋友　並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題 
 
而是在一起　就算不說話　也不會感到尷尬 
 
 
> 第十句 

朋友就是被你看透了 還能喜歡你的人

Besame Mucho

Don't really feel like thinking too much...just a lovely night with a song to remember !  Listening to this song, I wish to have a slow dance with the man of my life.......in my dream ! 

Haha...better than my nightmare !

Night night and have a sweet dream !

English translation...

Kiss Me A Lot

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
As if tonight was
the last time.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
Because I fear to lose you,
To lose you again.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
As if tonight was
the last time.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
Because I fear to lose you,
To lose you again.

I want to have you very close
To see myself in your eyes,
To see you next to me,
Think that perhaps tomorrow
I already will be far,
very far from you.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
As if tonight was
the last time.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
Because I fear to lose you,
To lose you again.

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
Because I fear to lose you,
To lose you again.

Because I fear to lose you,

Dream

I have weird dream for the past 2 days...and I dreamt of the same person !   Someone that I haven't seen for awhile.  It is kind of scary and funny too.  The figure of one and the face of another !  Unless over the months, one has put on weight and vice versa....haha !

Why do I suddenly dream of him and it has been 2 days straight !?

Actually it is not a sweet dream......I don't want this dream any more....sigh !

Waking up to reality.....

I thought about life 

People that came and touched our life, 

Why do you like this person ? 

What is that we have in common ?  

What is it that kept us close to one another ?

What is that special about you ?

A lot of things in life came when we least expected..... and what will it lead us through is totally unknown....those unforgettable moments that we shared, seems like a connection we had in our past life and we are reconnecting again !

My understanding daughter

When I started to blog, I remember I have posted something that I grumble and rant about my life so much !  What to do...I am just a simple woman managing a family..sure bounds to have some complaints..!

I must admit that I was going through very rough time in life, and I was very upset with weekends routine.

Now, it is still the same routine for me, in fact it gets even more crazy due to Joelle is turning 7 this year and she is preparing for her 1st ballet exam.  The dance school has planned out extra classes and as a mom, I have the responsibility to ensure she gets the best out of it.

But the fact is I am actually very tired doing this...but I don't have a choice.  So sometime I will joke with them and told them they have a crazy mom with crazy schedule.  Guess what, this is our conversation :

Joelle : Mom why not we stop everything ? 

Me : huh ?? Are you sure about this Joelle ? 

Joelle : But you are tired !  You will go crazy !

Me : Mama is tired because of the driving around, but it is worth it as you are learning something good for you !

My heart melts...she is so understanding..maybe a little innocent but all natural !

Honestly my kids are doing much lesser than other children !  I feel I just have to provide them as much as I can afford and cope with our lifestyle ! 

Children's party

Yesterday my children attended a birthday party at Kids Sport..if you know where and what that is !

I have done 3 parties at Kidz Sport before, and I couldn't agree to have it there and the games they played over years are still the same.

My son requested to have his 10th birthday party..and the reason is this is his first "double digits" birthday....haha ! And my children have been very lucky, they have their birthday parties at 1 year old...then alternate years.

As a single mom who has so much to work out, I know last year has been a very challenging and tough year for all of us.  It has been very hard for me especially and trying to balance life for the children, work and etc.

Since Jordan has requested again...I don't have the heart to turn him down.  They have been very understanding children.  So, I decided to start the hunt for venue.  It will be a party for 2, Jordan and Jolene.  

Varies places I visited today.......Kidz Sport is out, McDonald..boring, Camp 5, Get Crafty and Starship Galactica will be new to us !   Did some comparison on their activities, pricing and overall what can the kids enjoy and learn from the party, finally I short listed Camp 5.  As a parent, if you are not, you probably would not understand this...inviting a kid to your party, I must think of the food quality, type of activities and if the children will appreciate something at the end of it.  Why ?  It is not cheap to organise a party, and I got to make sure it is worthwhile and memorable.

Checked around for some party ideas, thought about having it at home, then again there is a lot to prepare, rental of venue, chairs and table, catering and the whole works of organising.  Some ideas like clown, magician, sand arts, even having pets and reptiles are not appealing to me.  The cost would be about the same !

So my Sunday since 9 am and it is all around the children...a very tired long day...but glad I have found something that I am happy !  Now, I look forward to the party...

女人其實嫁誰都會後悔?

一位好朋友和我分享这一篇。。。女人其實嫁誰都會後悔?

男人總是強調自己的「夢想」，女人擇男也有個人條件。比如男的要有前途、要成熟、要疼妳……

嫁給哪種男人比較好？比較不會痛罵自己瞎了眼睛？讓我們一個個看過來：

 

嫁給有錢的男人

食有魚，出有車，豪華別墅，錦衣麗服，珠圍翠繞，暗香瀰漫，這種日子應該很不錯的吧？可是，男人掙錢需要時間和精力，有錢的男人不是錙銖必較的商人，就是忙於應酬的權貴。

商人的腦子裡充滿利益，每天算計投入和產出，缺乏溫馨。許多年前的那個江州司馬早已看透了這種男人的本質－－重利輕別離。

權貴男人的腦子裡充滿關係，每天衡量著該和誰近，該和誰遠，缺乏柔情。有錢的男人往往沒時間，會將女人冷落一邊。嫁給這種男人的女人，等於嫁給電視機，嫁給美容院，要忍受長久的精神上的空虛，空有一份表面上的華麗，內心的苦澀有誰知道？

 

嫁給帥哥

顯然是自取滅亡。帥哥就算有心一生只愛你一人，也頂不住別的女人不管不顧的愛心奉獻。帥哥長的帥，艷遇來的快，快的叫你斬不盡殺不絕，春風吹又生，然後你的婚姻就成了一場你方唱罷我登場的鬧劇。

 

嫁給有閒的男人

每天都有人陪伴，他事情很少，記性好，你們的結婚紀念日，甚至你的生日，他都會記得一清二楚。他每天按時回家，還做得一手好菜，願意陪你逛商場，很會教育孩子。你每天生活在他的包圍之中，應該了無遺憾了吧？不，這種男人往往能力有限，沒有很多的錢，你必須千辛萬苦和他一起打拼，才能獲得一份溫飽生活。

看到別的女人養尊處優，年過四十依然面容姣美，十指纖纖，而你年紀輕輕，已經皮膚粗糙，玉手變形，就會不甘心－－別人怎麼能嫁個「鑽石男人」，自己怎麼嫁了個破銅爛鐵？

 

嫁給會說甜言蜜語的男人

你的心情會格外舒暢，這種男人聰明心細，善於發現女人的美。你換了一個髮型，換了一件衣服，甚至換了一種牌子的口紅，他都會及時發現，並馬上讚美。他會別出心裁地誇獎你透明的耳垂，誇獎你渾圓的腳踝，你會在這種被人欣賞的感覺中陶醉－－因為有些美你自己都未發現。

可是，你應該清醒一下，這種男人也很善於發現除了你之外的其他女人的美。他會把甜言蜜語說給很多女人聽，你甚至都不知道你是第幾個聽到他甜言蜜語的人。這種男人很危險，一不小心就會在外面豎起幾面「彩旗」，在情感上與別人「分一杯羹」，你會內心充滿痛苦和恥辱的。

 

嫁給樸實拙訥的男人

你儘管可以放心，他對你忠心耿耿，毫無二心，對身邊擦肩而過的美女絕對可以目不斜視。可是，這種男人往往遲鈍得可怕，你換了一雙新款的鞋子一周了，他都沒有發現；你問他塗粉色指甲油好還是淺紫色指甲油好，他通常會一臉茫然。

嫁給這種缺乏情趣的男人，你會覺得自己的女性之美形同虛設。

 

嫁給才子

這事怎麼說呢？先把才子分為出人頭地懷才不遇兩種。前者的各種翹楚有徐志摩、郁達夫，他們的愛情婚姻都轟動一時，可是結果不甚美妙。才子佳人的組合太旖旎，就會折福。懷才不遇的才子最好別嫁，嫁了也是陪他一起譴責上蒼無眼、小人當道、時運不濟。懷才不遇者都有股怨氣，怨的久了、深了，人也就陰暗了。別叫我找實例，因為他們都已被殘酷的生活所埋沒。

 

嫁給專業人士

好像不錯，比如律師醫生，婚後遇到什麼事情都有人護航。這類人較有素質，一般不會發生秀才遇見兵有理說不清的悲劇。可他們通常都很忙，半夜要出診，假期不見人，而且可能不浪漫，有一種嚴謹的職業病，把你一個人困在婚姻裡哀嚎。

 

嫁給教師

他們很難有陞遷機會，不大會給你驚喜。其工作方式就是從低年級向高年級爬，然後直線下跌，週而復始，樂此不疲。他們的優點是每年會有三個月可以做家庭婦男，並且免費為子女做家庭教師。

 

<後記>：

你也許會說，嫁給既有錢又有閒，既有情趣又有忠貞不渝的男人，肯定不會後悔。
是這樣的，但是，世間沒有這麼完美的男人。

即使有，我們也配不上－－因為我們自身不夠完美。

因此，嫁給誰都後悔，我們只能守著一份凡俗的婚姻，誰都不能倖免－－因為我們都是有缺點的人。

這很無奈，但這就是生活。

Relaxing Saturday

I had an easy afternoon.....while waiting for my daughter, I stepped into a cafe, looked through the display....not really sure what to eat for lunch, finally ordered a banana walnut muffin, something that I enjoy...banana ! Next the beverage, again I couldn't decide, and the crew was kind enough to offer a suggestion that goes well with my muffin......Irish Nut Cream.

I found my self a place outdoor, under the sun but very comfortable, watching people passing by..couples, family and teenagers ! 

Not too bad a combination, a little sweet for me, maybe next time I will ask for less sweet !

I am feeling more relaxing now and I am adapting into another phase of my life...I am glad and happy !  I want to keep up with this and I want to make it better in time to come !

I have choosen the following 2 songs from Olivia, I kinda enjoy her songs !

Hope you like it too !

I am inspired to cook again !

Real or not ?  I asked myself ???

Actually I love to cook and I have been cooking for the family since I was 18 after Form Five.  I meant real serious cooking like roast chicken, cook something out from the recipe book and stuff.

I enjoy cooking for people especially if they appreciate it !!  I don't cook fansy stuff...simple home cook meal for the family is what I enjoy !

Since I have a maid like 7 years ago, I have not really been cooking...a little rusty now but if when I feel like cooking, I will do my best.

Yesterday, I was at the Ikano and celebrity chef Bobby Chinn was promoting his World Cafe Asia Season 2, and since I was there, why not sit in and join the ladies !!  It is quite obvious that his fan are mostly ladies...must be his look, cute and funny !  The organiser was nice enough, allowing the audience to take a pic with him...hehe I have something to remember too !

After the show, I am inspired to cook again !  Haha...see if you are lucky enough to be invited to my house for my long overdue cooking !

Sincerity

As I always tell my friend, I don't like to fake and I am always sincere in my approach.

 

I am sincere with my work, my life and including friends.  Friends who have known me for years through work, school days would definite agree that I have always been a true friends, sociable and approachable...maybe I don't keep in touch with all on a regular basis, due to work and commitment, but the sincerity to help and support is there whenever they need me !

I am not sure being sincere will be taken for granted by some friends ?  But when I need support and help, will I find the same sincerity from my friends for me ? !

Once I asked a friend about the relationship situation of A & B......his answer to me is "friend".  Keeping it as friend is simple and make things easy, don't need to think too much into it.  

Is that the answer I want ?? Just one of my crazy thoughts for the day !

Passion

Do you work and live your life with passion ?

 

I do, I always do and it is already ingrained in me...haha ! 

My job is so customer oriented and my role is all about bringing the best to the client.   I work hard to achieve deliverable service.

Probably all these years of working in the service industry, facing client and their demands, and keeping up with "wow" effects for special event year after year,  has groomed me to build up the passion in my job and to do my best for them.

Passion : a deep, strong interest and overwhelming emotions !  

I gave a deep thought about my client and their requirements and if we can cope with their demands. If everyone has the same passion like I do..a friend laughed at me, it is impossible for everyone to be like you !  Not everyone thinks like you !  There is more than just passion in work, but interpersonal skill is also very important in tackling the client.

I have no regret in the work that I have passion and dedication all these years, even though I have worked long hours, deprived from sleep and away from home most of the times.

Do you enjoy your work like I do ?  

Feeling Great

Thursday seems to be a great day for me..and it is always special !

There is something that I have to do and it is on every Thursday !

Woke up early, went for my early morning walk.  Happy with the walk and my neighbour joined me and we talked and walked,  but after the walk, I always feel very invigorated and less tired at the end of the day !

Since I have started this walk last year, I feel really good and keeping my self in good shape. Even though I have lost 2 kg recently, some friends who met me said I am keeping well...hopefully their comments are genuine, you know some peoples can be very "fake" and not sincere.

Even if I put on that 2 kg again, it is still my ideal weight for my size, not too big neither too small, just average.  But my fear is the 2kg is shown on the most unwanted area, like my tummy and hip.  No worries, my diet has been kept at low fat and less oil, and this is how I keep in shape and healthy most importantly !  Haha..my neighbours envy me how I managed to keep slim..

Just feel great and happy !  May you feel the same as I do !

Just Confused

Some friends who read my blog asked me...are you in love ?  

Why do they think so ?  Am I in love !?  

I am also confused now, why do they think I am in love !  Actually I think I am out of love and songs that I have posted are mostly for the lost love !   Have I mislead them haha...?  

Here is another song that came to my mind...!  Am missing someone and thought this song is just right for tonight !

Healing a broken heart

I was listening to the radio and this beautiful song was played on my favorite station, and on the other station, there were listeners sharing how long it takes to heal the broken heart.

Some said they need two years to recover and some said a few months...

Yeah, I agree it takes times to heal...and it will never be fully healed !  There is always some memories left bitter or sweet ! In fact I could remember the bit and pieces of the moment we shared...going to bed and waking up remembering those moments.. Yeah, I even cried when I think of it.....I supposed I shouldn't cry as it has been a great moment in my life to treasure for life ! Haha !

It is hard to forget a relationship completely.  The sadness of separation will slowly fade away..but the thought of the person who touched my life once will stay forever.

Not sure about you....but it stays in me forever !  This song brings back memories of someone I truly missed !

All alone at pasar malam

Yesterday, while driving home, the weather was good and I decided to detour to SS2 pasar malam.  Paid a ripped off parking rate at the open car park just because I was lazy to look around and for my safety sake didn't want to park at dark places and had to walk too far alone.  It is really not worth the visit if I get into risk of being robbed.

It has been awhile since I have gone to Pasar Malam and all alone.  Actually it is quite nice as I don't have to worry about loosing sight of my 3 precious !

I always enjoy pasar malam especially when I have someone to walk along.  I may not be buying anything in particular....probably some fruits, vegetables, locally made Kimchi and some snacks.

Walking at pasar malam can be quite entertaining, listening to children's nursery rhyme and educational programme which are now plentiful !  You and I know....latest movies, new songs on the chart are available at every corner and so many to choose from.   The best is now fake eye lashes are available too in various designs...lol.

One of the CD stalls was playing Love Songs of the 80s...so nice ! Some of the compilations are Athur's Theme (Best that you can d0), All Out Of Love, Just When I Needed You Most, And I Love You So, Can't Fight This Feeling, Do That To Me One More Time, Truly, Up Where We Belong and many more.

Bad of me..but I actually supported pirated thingy...! 

One of the songs...hope you like it :-)

What you get..

Someone sent me through email.... true and funny ! 

To all the ladies, enjoy and to men...beware ! Haha !

Good morning my dear !

Every morning when I wake up...first thing I will receive is my dearest baby, she walks into the room with her eyes half open, her curly hairs all over covering her face, and she will jump onto my bed, "Mom, good morning" and "Mom, 早安".  

She will join me on the bed, tuck herself into the blanket....hug me and a gentle kiss from her tiny lips!

I recall those days whenever I wake up, I will receive sms greeting wishing me Good morning and have a great day and etc....and I will do the same as sincerely I hope he feels the same !  

Good morning to you and wherever you are....have a pleasant day and smile always and be safe ! 

This is a song by Lionel Richie..Good Morning !