最初的夢想

今天我反复的听了这首歌好几遍. 它令我想起了我的梦想, 我们每一个人在学校里,老师们要我们写下我们的梦想. 想起来,有多少个人的梦想都达到了.

我所响往的美好的憧憬. 和人生的旅途都在反反复复, 有挫折, 有欢乐, 有悲哀, 有成就也有失败. 一切一切都是短暂的. 在人生的某个阶段, 因为我们的经历, 改变了我们最初的梦想, 是不是我们的梦想就不会再达到了吗? 在彷徨的时候,是不是就没有梦想? 好多人说我们一定要有梦想,才会有实现的机会. 因为我们的人生又开始有目标 - 就是我们的梦想!

我的人生到了这时候, 面对的前景没有抱太大的希望, 没有多大的勇气面对, 只好依靠我小小的梦想, 一步一步的迈向它, 堅持自己把我小小的梦想实现了.

快乐幸福，感恩知足。希望你也和我一样喜欢这首歌:)

如果骄傲没被现实大海冷能拍下 

又怎会懂得要多努力 才走得到远方

如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖 千钧一发

又怎会晓得执着的人 有隐形翅牓

把眼泪装在心上 

会开出勇敢的花

可以在疲惫的时光

闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳 

就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮 

又能边走着边哼着歌 用轻快的步伐

沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量 

多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀 

很高兴一路上我们的默契那么长

穿过风又绕个弯心还连着 像往常一样 

最初的梦想紧握在手上 

最想要去的地方 怎么能在半路就放 

最初的梦想绝对会到达 

实现了真的渴望 才能够算到过了天堂 

Me and my past

Sometimes I wonder if I should post some of my past here !

I have been thinking a lot, now that I am into my 40s, I beginning to ask a lot of self realisation questions. And I feel since I started to have this life journal written, it helps me to see who I truly am, and what I truly seek and want.

Some part of my life is now history but I thought it would be good to have them recorded here, so that I could read them over and over again, to re-examine and understand what happened then.

It is not about me staying on with the past, it is really not my wish to remember the past, especially those very painful and hurtful ones, but it is a way to remember them as a chapter in my life. It is really time to leave the main chapter in my life....

Perhaps, I will start to write something about me and my husband ! Even though we are about to end our relationship amicably soon, he definitely has been someone in my life. I feel by writing this part of my life here, it helps me to totally let go of the past which I had let go...and soon it will be all over.

Be yourself, true to yourself

It is almost impossible to change the characteristic and personality of one.

We may say many things to change our mind set, attended many motivational talks, read the best self help books, only to think it works, but truly it lies within ourselves. Who exactly we are, the fear we faced and truth in life of who we are.

When I started to write my blog, I have written it as a way for me to explore my writing skill...though not excellent, but just a way for me to release my stress, a journal of good things in life, funny moments and every little things that I came across in life. I have left the comment column open, didn't expect much from it, and I read the comments though some left it as anonymous. I took every comment without offend and I accepted whatever that comes.

There is always a choice of no publishing the comments, but the fact is when you read a comment that is not to your liking, can you accept that just reading it ?? Everyone has different opinion and see things from different perspective, thus comments can be unfriendly or judgemental or even find it silly. This is fear of being judged which most of us are afraid of. In life, we talk and meet people, we also receive comments and critics...like it or not, this is life, just listen and judge wisely what is right or wrong, if we should talk further and react with mindfulness.

A new blogger like me, not popular as compared to many out there, and if you are so used to receiving comments and the readership is somewhat important, I think no matter how it is ingrained that these seasoned bloggers will need the attention of readers.

Therefore, be true to yourself who you are, what you like. This is how I feel about life, I enjoy doing things that I have been doing, only through experiences that life ahead will be more meaningful.

Are you happy with what you are now ?? Is this the life you want ? Are you really achieving the inner peace and feel contented ?

I can't lie to myself of what I wish to be.....self affirmation without being true to ourselves will not lead us a long way...

I like to share something I read from Robin Sharma's book :

Darkness is nothing more than an absense of light; once you pour the light of human awareness and understanding into the darkest recesses of your being, you will become a being filled with light. Where there was once fear, there will be love. What it means to be "en-light-entend" ~ one filled with light. The integrity gap is a step home, towards the state of enlightenment that you truly are.

Just my rambling thoughts...Be yourself, be true to yourself !

What is songs to me ?

"A song is no song till you sing it; 

A bell is no bell till you ring it; 

and love in your heart was not put there to stay;

Love is not love till you give it away."

What a beautiful song !

 

Some say love it is a river 
that drowns the tender reed 
Some say love it is a razor 
that leaves your soul to bleed 

Some say love it is a hunger 
an endless aching need 
I say love it is a flower 
and you it's only seed 

It's the heart afraid of breaking 
that never learns to dance 
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance 
It's the one who won't be taken 
who cannot seem to give 
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live 

When the night has been too lonely 
and the road has been too long 
and you think that love is only 
for the lucky and the strong 
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows 
lies the seed 
that with the sun's love 
in the spring 
becomes the rose 

Rose ~ the love of many women.   Rose is always linked to love, especially red roses are symbol of sexual love, woman's beauty and pleasure in relationship.  The use of rose is not limited to just love for the living being, but in funeral it is also used as a sign of love to our dearly departed person in our lives.

It is not a new song, and it is a song of yesteryear that we have heard it many times, but each time when I listen to a song, the lyrics will remind me of my life and my experience.  I will sink into the song, feel the meaning of the song.  Some songs really sing my heart out, exactly those feeling at that moment.  I guess all songs are written for a purpose, the right song is always there for those who needs it at the right time..

I can't live a day without listening to songs or any type of music......song is part of me and it is connected to me through love...love of my life, my family and religion.

Sing ~ I love to sing and it is also a way to relax more so like recreations for me.  When I sing, I really enjoy myself and sing the best I could.  This is how much I enjoy listening to music, sentimental ones in general are my favourite, love songs of 80's.  It is so important to fill my life with music as a stimulation to my brain, when I walk in the morning, I will listen to some religious chant....boring right...just doubling up the benefits of keeping healthy and religiously enriched....haha ! Sometimes I will choose randomly from the song library, can be fast or slow as long as it soothes my ears !!   I just love Carpenter's song...Here is another great song...

Sing out loud

Sing out strong
Sing of good things not bad
Sing of happy not sad.

Sing, sing a song
Make it simple to last
Your whole life long
Don't worry that it's not
Good enough for anyone
Else to hear
Just sing, sing a song.

Sing, sing a song
Let the world sing along
Sing of love there could be
Sing for you and for me.

Sing, sing a song
Make it simple to last
Your whole life long
Don't worry that it's not

Good enough for anyone
Else to hear
Just sing, sing a song.

Growing old together

Today while I was waiting for my children, I witness something that I felt sad about it.

A couple in their early 60's I believe, and the man has suffered stroke on the right side, and there was a napkin hang over his shirt as he salivates unconsciously.  The woman looks healthy with the help from the maid, pushing her husband around in the wheel chair.

We were sharing the lift and I couldn't see any sign of happiness shown on her face,  her facial expression was very dull, and the only gesture I saw was she wiping his saliva that was dripping off from his mouth.  

I began to think, how long has she been doing this ? What is her pain in coping with this situation ? Does she have any frustration ?  How about the man, he looks tall and well built even though he is sitting on the wheel chair, and what would be his frustration unable to move due to limited physical ability plus speech impairment ?  What is on his mind for those who cares for him ? Can they both share how they feel for each other now ?

The thought that came to my mind was, as a wife or life partner, when one is stricken with such sickness,  it is the duty of the capable one to look after, accept him unconditionally and be prepared to walk this path together.  Saying is easy, but when reality hits us, it is about facing different life altogether, it is also a time to test oneness ultimately !

I feel sympathy for them.  The best I can do for myself is to stay healthy, hopefully I don't have to go through this and expecting someone to take care of me.  While we can and if you have someone to love, just love truly and enjoy each other, give the best love you have, show the most affectionate part of you to your loved one !  Good  life and happy moments can be short...so, just enjoy la !

Metta loving kindness to this couple...may they be well, healthy and happy ! Sharing here two beautiful love songs...

Have a wonderful week ahead :)

Handy Woman

It is Saturday and it seems like a day getting things fixed up in the house !

I guess it is my nature that I can't leave things in the house unfixed !  Since day 1 I became "Mrs XXX", I realised I have been a handy wife.  Perhaps it is my independent nature that I overtook the role of managing the household.  If you ask me if I like it that way, not really !  I like to be a wife not a handy wife.   But at home, we need to have one handy person or a person who will organise the household, I proudly became one...lol !

Basically what I really need is to ask and to seek advice before I proceed, and I will get things done.  Just a matter of getting some advice if that is right way to do it.   I think nowadays, women are equally good in managing house hold !

No matter how independent I can be, I feel it is necessary to have someone whom we trust and we can ask opinion !  For example, I never knew much about my car, technically how do I keep up the condition of the car, somehow, I am forced by circumstances to deal with it.   So, it is good to ask for advice before I go ahead.

Why do I post about this ?  Coincidently a few things in the house didn't work and I got them fixed.   I remember sometimes ago, I had never dealt with the PC in the house, and it broke down.  I have no clue how to fix it, I was totally lost as it was maintained by my husband.  At that time,  I felt the frustration and I don't know what to do and who to call, can you imagine I don't even know the password and I depended so much on him ! Finally, I searched the newspaper, found a small ads and since then he became my PC repairer.

What I am saying is, everyday it is a learning lesson for me.   At some point in my life, I lost the dependency of someone, and I desperately need to find a way to survive on my own feet.  And I always feel, I live a life that unconsciously has groomed me as a independent person, funny but maybe it is true, prepared me to face the challenges in life. 

Well, this is more so dealing with nitty gritty of life, but on emotional level, I guess I am coping ok but it is still human nature that we need to have companionship.  I can't imagine living a life without love, friends and family ~ to love and be loved, I like both !

Have a good weekend, it has been a good one for me so far :)

Your smile made me smile

I often have friends telling me they like my SMILE :)

I wonder if that is true, do I really have a smile that could warm a person's heart ? I don't have a Monalisa's signature smile unfortunately. Do I really make a person smile looking at my photo ?  

My smile is sincere, kind and genuine.  And when I smile, it is truly from the bottom of my heart, no faking unless I don't feel like smiling..at times I would !  It is not about just flexing the muscle on the face, but if you feel happy, it is naturally a warm smile !

I always feel smile is contagious, I remember once someone asked me how are you ? I replied, I am feeling good and happy, and immediately he could sense a smile on my face, and he replied, I am smiling too.  Your smile made me smile !  

I live a simple life and I care to see others smile and always do.  And if my smile could bring happiness to someone, it is indeed my great pleasure.  

Always remember to be happy because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.  

Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.  ~Mother Teresa

Everything happens for a reason

Everything happened for a reason, I believe so and it is true !

Recently my girl friend went abroad to nurse her injured boy friend.  She spent almost 1 month with him and today I asked her, how she felt after one month !?

Before she left the country, her relationship with her boy friend has been bad, and they were at the edge of splitting.  He has been working abroad and occasionally returned to visit her.  Trying very hard to mend the relationship !  Should I say fortunately or unfortunately he injured himself badly and went for a major spine operation.  And she was there to take care of him.  

It has been a good one month of staying together that brought them closer and they are more patient, and they talked more than usual.   Both of them appreciate the company of one another, and the tensed relationship is now better and she is a changed person.

In life, when we face difficult changes and circumstances, we may cry and feel sad, but we learn to face it and stand up again.  Sometimes, we just live in the nutshell not knowing how to release and let go, thus we create the tension and stress unnecessarily.

I guess God has created this little suffering to bring the mindfulness of this lovely couple together again !  To understand, to find out the value of one another and how much they needed each other.

At times, I think to myself, why do I worry so much and why do I care so much for something that I am unable to control, like what he or she is thinking of ?  I should not let the fear stay in me, I have no desire of fear and I willingly seek my own happiness and the purpose of my life.

May they be happy and peace, Metta !

Left unknown

I supposed many of us have read about two missing doctors recently and a lot of coverage in different newspapers.  Each reported their version that left the readers with many question marks as to the relationship of the deceased and how it happened and etc.

I must admit when I first read, it led me to think they are having an affair and how they ended up with sudden death.  Could they be robbed ? Papers reported they might have elopped and even checking with immigration if they have left the country.

Finally after my meeting with respectable professional in the same industry yesterday, it clears the air.  They were good friend and very active in trekking and they were there to survey the place for their upcoming trekking activity for the hospital.   

Sadly, no one knows what exactly happened then, but they fell to death tragically.  The cause of death is left unknown !

The hospital losses two capable and experienced doctors, the children will be missing their beloved parents, the patients will miss their favourite doctors, a great loss to some good friends !

So sometimes what we read on the newspaper are so untrue...and it requires some ethical for the reporter to write the real stuff and not misleading the readers to think otherwise.  Just imagine if I hadn't heard it from someone who knew them well...I would be left thinking ignorantly.

Just my view la...

Self Sufficient and Happy

I had a real good chat with a friend whom I have known for many years through work....not one of those that trying to chat me up over the net.

We chat on work, life, experiences, personal life and etc.   So, we both agree that we need to be self sufficient and be contented with our self.  Firstly, we start with healthy lifestyle,  including eating healthy food, cut down on alcohol, working out, meditation and both of us are not smokers but we used to drink together ! He is now into dieting plan, detoxing programme is over.  

And on spiritual side, he laughed and said all women would think man is important in their life and including his 2 sisters.  He has boosted my confident further that staying spiritually high, gives one extra confident and it will attract the opposite and life is so much more happier that way.

Being self sufficient, we are more easily contented with our life, live simple and find happiness in oneself.  Overall, I am a very confident person, resilient to face any consequences in life..and strong enough to lead my life though it seems like a real challenging life ahead !   

It has been a real lengthy chat..thanks buddy for sharing this valuable chat with me and he is a real changed man I noticed since past few months.   We need to know our value so we will know how to love ourself and to love others around us.  Having to understand myself and what is the purpose of me here...is very important to drive my life and for the family !

p/s : sorry to keep you awake way past your normal bedtime :-)  it must have been so interesting to explore what life is all about and how we could make the best out of it !

I just need to note this down...it has been an inspirational chat !

Good luck and stay well !

Can you trust me ?

Can you trust me ?  Trust matter....how to deal with it ?

 

I was talking to a lady and she said she had argument with this guy and it is a matter of trust related to business.   What's more in relationship where both parties are committing seriously into responsibility, taking care and trusting the person on intimate level.   Trust the person you loved and finally you are betrayed...posting your indecent pictures on the net and etc...I supposed when you can share some very personal pictures of you to someone, it entails great trust in that friendship to start with.

People often asked you don't trust me ?   How to response ? Have you ever trust a person 100% and no doubt at all of any possibilities that he won't cheat you ?  There is no 100% assurance in anything...this is side topic....my ex colleague from AIA has suffered tremendous loss when AIG faced the financial crisis.  Some of them were nearly millionaire but sadly overnight...they are not !  Unless they have another good 20 years with the company to see the share price return to those good old days !  So they have entrusted their retirement funds with the lucrative share options that they have accumulated over the years !

Why is there so much fear for people to get committed into relationship ?  Is it about TRUST ??? Trust or  not trusting the person that this relationship will last ?  I really have no answer to it.. ..it goes by instinct at first, any thing can happen but as long as both enjoy being together, build up the confidence and understanding, seeing the great value in each other...and the rest we shall leave it to our fate !

What do you think ?

Just my thoughts :-)

Relaxation

A friend asked me how do I relax ? Especially now that he just learnt what a dramatic life I have gone through and what are the challenges ahead of me !

So I told him that I usually will go for a good massage, foot reflexology, facial or just a good hair wash !  Today, I decided to do something to make me happy also to relax......actually I just came back from a very hectic trip..and I loss my appetite since I came back strangely !  So I went for a Thai massage.   This is just to pamper my tired body, my shoulder that is always carrying a 2 kg bag full of working papers, camera and etc.  

I like this Thai masseur...I find her better than the one I had in Chiangmai recently !  No doubt it is dirt cheap in Thailand...but I don't feel satisfied with the technique and skills.  This one that I went to this afternoon, she really know where to stretch and I really enjoyed the one hour session.  I will defintely go back to her again...it is more than 12 hours after the massage, I don't feel any pain or ache on my body !

Speaking of massage, I find it very romantic to do it for our partner.  Too bad I am not trained professionally ! However this little gesture or actions we showed to our partner..at times can be ticklish more than therapeutic...may mean a lot and it is a way to build the bonding and closeness.

I enjoy this moment...

Just my sharing of experience I had today :-)

Earth Hour

Lately there is a lot of publicity about the conservation of energy and it seems very encouraging so far that people shown their concern to what is happening to the earth !

I remember years back, I initiated this at home and we set it on every Sunday night !   Those days,  we usually dined out and when we returned, it is time to unwind and get ready for another productive week.  The children get really excited and want to be part of the preparation !  I will light many candles around the house for one hour...and open up the sliding doors for fresh air...the good thing is I live on the upper floor where I get good flow of breeze !  It feels good to see all the different candles and it changes our mood immediately !

I have not been doing it regularly, maybe it is time to do it again !  Get back to simplicity in life and teach the children to understand and appreciate life and what modernisation has brought to us either ways !

Save our world...starts from us !

Do you know if someone cares for you ?

It is a very chilly and windy evening.  I just got home after meditation class !  Pretty much my routine...nothing exceptional lately.  I keep my life simple !  I was thinking a lot while driving home.  

Recently I read about how rampant those cases of snatch thief, robbery and etc that is so threatening to our lives.  I always hear people telling me to be extra careful with my handbag, even crossing the road and getting into the car.   Good to be extra careful, never know when is the misfortune taking place.

And being single and driving alone most of the times, my girl friend who cares so much about me reminded me too, please take care of yourself and don't drive late night.

At times I really feel like having that "someone" who would call me to check if I have reached home safely.  Is not about me being manja...but just feel good knowing there is someone who cares.  Just a show of concern, you know what I mean ???  

I am seen as a very independent person and obviously capable of taking care of myself...but at the end of the day, I need shelter and attention...especially when I am lonely and after a long busy day..I like to have that someone to care for me !

Life is such that I just have to learn to adapt and make the best out of it.  

Just my thought la.....nice sentimental songs to share with you :)

The Sign

Yesterday a friend asked  me if I was still feeling hurt from my past ?

It took me awhile to reply, I thought and I gave him my reply.  I was hurt but life moves on.  Whether is sadness or happiness, these are impermanent, and we should not let this emotional state of mind affect us too much.   And the sadness and happiness comes and go, learn to let go and seek happiness within ourself, it helps.

The sign...what is this all about ?  

Late last night, after I sent an sms, I read some old messages that I have in my phone, some messages that I have kept, and I read them again and I realised, the sign is there.  He had this mindset of what is the future of his life.   He shown sign of unhappiness and willing to be parted with everything he has worked hard all his life !  It is a sign of force shaping the life he wanted.  What can I say anymore...I feel very sad actually, after so many years living together with him, I have failed to understand him and his ego was too much for him to open up with me about his stress.

Everything happened for a reason, including the timing and situation. Unfortunately it happened and I was made the cause for it.   I can only wish him well and be happy !  

After reading these messages again, do I feel hurt ? Yes I do, it is obvious !  But what had happened can only be the past, no matter how hurtful it was before, I am not heartless and emotionless, I have gone through a lot of sufferings.  Let the past be left as a part of my life and memories, I continue to live within the happiness that I have.  

I will treasure every bit of the happiness I have to make my life a better one.  To all who shared their life with me, may you be well, happy and peaceful.

Real meaning of attractive

I thought of this many times if external beauty is essential to attract men ?

Is beauty and  fashion savvy all that matters when considering attractive ?  Perhaps yes but not all, it is important to keep ourselves looking presentable but not all the way out to dress in dazzling outfit for any men to observe.  

Lately, a few friends talked to me about ways to stay young looking like Botox, placenta treatment and liposuction.  Honestly I care in keeping myself look neat and presentable, but I am not into any of these.

I find a real meaning of being attractive should be the maturity as I aged.  Keeping my best attributes and keeping up with what is best about me is essential.  I may not have a figure of a super model, but having the right confidence to stand tall above all is another attractiveness.

I shouldn't have fear of ageing, more wrinkles, fish tail line and a few stretch marks are just part of me.  An attractive women will make her life works for her to be happy.  And men will go after a woman whom they have respect and not taken for granted.  When you get down to it, men love women who have that special kind of indifference.   

So, why bother so much about all this cosmetic surgery that cost thousands, suffers so much pain for weeks while recovery, worst if the surgery failed !  How about keeping one healthy and feeling of serene, the inner beauty sets in naturally.

I am confidence as I am now, like me the way I am, the way I live my life and how I keep up with myself.   However, everyone should do their best in looking presentable and decently dressed for the right occasion.

Ladies, do you agree ?  The external beauty sets the first impression, the women will have to upkeep herself, not for the man but is to boost her self confidence.  Ultimately I feel, the inner beauty is what attracts a man's heart !

Depression

I feel depressed

Why am like this ?

Why do I get so easily affected ?

The mood swing and unknown reasons !

Unexplainable respond of someone !

Why should I feel this way ?

Why am I so vulnerable ?

Because I allow myself to !

It is time to let go and forget 

Friendly advice..

Dont let it mess with your head

You deserve someone better !

I like to share this with you !

Been single too long ??

Once a net friend asked me if I have fantasy ?

Instantly my answer was no....maybe I have not given a deep thought about it.

Days later, I thought over it again, I actually do have fantasy of this and that.   The fantasy can go wild and funny at times.  Sorry just can't describe all my fantasies here but I do have !   

My believe is that able to fantasize helps us to keep our life exciting.  I have the following to share with you, got them from my regular newsletter, try this if you are single and trying or reluctant to get into relationship !   The following are probably the answer of why do I remain as single :

• It lets me do what I like, when I like 
  
• It allows me to live in a tidy, organised home. 
  
• It keeps my options open so I can find Mr. or Mrs. Right 
  
• It saves me having to commit 
  
• It stops me getting hurt when things go wrong
  

First relax somewhere comfortable where you won’t be disturbed. Then imagine being with the man or woman of your dreams. Visualise them as strongly and graphically as you can in your mind. Bring all your senses into play. What would they look, sound, smell, feel and even taste like! Really get into the feeling of being with them and imagine the fun and happiness that you would have together. What qualities do they have? 

Once you have really experienced this potential partner as vividly as you can, the next step is tolet go completely of the need to have them in your life. This sounds crazy, but holding on to the need to have them as your partner, will energetically push them away. Just trust that a partner will appear in your life before long. If you have any spiritual or religious faith you could hand over your wish for a partner to a higher power. Then get on with your life.

Manifesting like this seems (I wouldn’t presume to know how the Universe works!) to open us up to what is already moving towards us or is available to us. Our minds attract or push things away without us even realizing it, so this technique increases the attraction energy that you are sending out. If you think about it, there must be thousands of prospective partners out there. Some of them will already be in your ‘close orbits’. By first letting go of your resistance to be in a relationship and then inviting in a partner by visualising them as already present, you are saying, “I’m ready for a partner”. This will work provided that you really believe in it wholeheartedly! The only other thing is to remember that you are beautiful just the way you are. Of course have pride in your appearance, but above all, be yourself. Somebody who is comfortable with themselves, honest and open-hearted, is irresistible.

I find it very interesting !  Just fantasy and you will smile at the end of it.   

Hope you find this experience works on you !  And hope you will find someone...in the meantime,  just relax and enjoy your life...someone will appear suddenly...and next you know...you recognised is coming and just don't push them away !

Sex and the city

It seems a little delay for me to watch this movie as it was shown last year, but I just bought the DVD.

Tonight, after a long day work, came home played with my 3 darlings, sat down on the couch I watched the movie while enjoying home cook dinner, fried fish and my very home grown sauce "budu".  This is our family favourite right to my little girl who will be turning three in 2 days time.   If you do not know what that is, it is like you must have a bottle of soya sauce and we must have budu !  I could have used my hands if there was ulam then...haha !

I really enjoyed the movie, seeing the 40s and their life, went through different stages, realising what is more important, seeking LOVE even is for our self.    There is no logic, it is just love !  So true !  What can love do to a person ?? Will you smile again after broken hearted ???  After a marriage is betrayed, can you trust the person again ?  It is about 2 persons seeking the love again as both are unsure if it will be the same before !  The ultimate truth of what love is for the two of them !

This is one of the love letter / poem in the movie :

Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence 

can we achieve our purpose to live together - 

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - 

what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. 

Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. 

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

When I look at Carrie while she was in the most devastated look, I began to think was I like that ?  Do I look that awful then ? And seeing her friends around her supporting her reminds me of how my family and friends who stayed by me when I went through the pain and crying days ! I must admit that someone actually touched my life and brought back that smile on me.  I love you all, my parents, sisters, my 3 darlings and friends !  

Love is an act of endless forgiveness

~ Peter Ustinov

To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides

~ David Viscott

Fallen for you

Waking up with memories of you  

Memory of moments we shared flashing all over again ! 

I don't know why...it just lingers on !

our laughters

our first date

our first movie 

our first kiss 

our time together

through our chat

we became closer

through understanding

we became intimate

 

I have fallen for you !