Meditation Progress

It was a tiring day for me due to lack of sleep the night before. I still made it to the class because I had missed the week before due to extensive traveling lately. While waiting for the class to begin, I felt very sleepy and there is Sis Jin who offered a hot drink for me. And she suggested that I should do walking meditation instead..so I started walking meditation officially last night.

I feel good and it keeps my concentration better. Every movement is being observed and focussed even while standing. I think I will continue with more walking meditation.

I have been practising meditation and I find it is all about self realization. We have books to read about how meditation works for us, but it is all about our own experience. Something that I have learnt, in life we will win and we will also lose, but whatever the outcome, we have to be prepared for it. If we prepare to gamble, we should be prepared to lose. We can win and we can also afford to lose, and that is something we constantly reminding ourselves.

When we are happy, do not get overjoyed and forgotten what the reality is, and when we are sad, do not let the sorrow drag us too long. It is about us understanding equanimity, a balance of mind. I believe when one suffers badly, and when it hit the bottom, it is also the time to bounce up again.

The best is to stay neutral and practise stable and evenness of mind. When we face unpleasant situation, do not let the perception affect our thought that leads to our action or speech. It is best to be mindful in reacting to life situation.

I reflected at one scenario, and I felt I have overacted and I feel sorry. It is just my perception that it was wrong. That is the good thing of being mindful...

Just my thoughts for the day :)

The Discovery of Metta Meditation

I am just happy

It started just minutes before we started the meditation session. It is also a beginning of the new moon, and a Puja (prayer) was conducted. I feel blessed obviously :-) Brought a few candies home to share with my loved one...

Anyway, what is it that I was so happy about ? I remember one of the meetings I had with Honorable Chief Priest Rev. Ratana, he advised me that there is no SHORT CUT to meditation. Firstly you must start with Metta Meditation which is focusing on radiating loving kindness and then progress to Vippasana Meditation or Insight / Mindfulness Meditation which is commonly known.

I thought I understood what Chief said, oh yes we need to radiate loving kindness and that is when we are able to practise Insight / Calmness meditation. By statement I understood what he meant !


Suddenly the clarity came and I could relate what Chief told me months ago with an incident in my life. Someone that I knew often complaint about his anger, hatred and frustration he faced at work and with people in his life. And we spoke about meditation before and I think he is a better yogis than me, as claimed he does Vippasana meditation a lot more than I do. But why is there still so much anger, hatred and frustration in his life ? All of us has ups and downs even with our moods, but why do we get irritated easily if we practise mindfulness through meditation !?

There is no short cut is the answer...firstly like what Chief shared with me, practise Metta and with the right mindset and let the heart radiates loving kindness even towards people who has hurt us and caused us a lot of suffering. You will still feel calm, enjoy more inner peace and less agitated with situation that causes unpleasant or unhappy about.

I feel great for discovering this tonight...and I know why even though I have gone through a terribly down times in marriage yet there is no anger nor hatred towards it.

I am glad that radiating and practicing Metta has helped me a lot, it is so important to start it right....Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu !

Meditation Progress

I have been attending the weekly meditation class and I find some improvement so far.

I remember when I first started attending the Tuesday session, I find it difficult to settle down, and I always feel the session is too long.

Recently, I find it easier and in fact I enjoy the session. Last Tuesday, I am happy that I managed to anchor my focus mindfully. The feeling arises and passes and it is how I overcome the pain that I felt on my back, the numbness on my legs. I compared how I did the week before, it is an improvement.

Yeah...it is a sign of improvement ! I have to continue with my chanting and perfect it....