What kind of title is this ? I don't know how to title it a better way and guess what you are about to read below will explain why !
It is 3 years now and the divorce is over though not fully finalised. The kids have not met my ex-husband for the last 3 years, I think there were occasions that I met him without the kids, and I always have this daunting feeling of what is the reaction if the kids see him. I have even asked them what would be their feelings and reaction if they meet their father. The children answered "I don't know".
Tonight, my son hadn't had his dinner before tuition, so took all with me for a supper. I saw my ex's car and next I saw him walked into the restaurant. He saw me while I was talking on the phone, and he walked straight into the restaurant. In less than 5 minutes, he walked out again. I feel the kids saw him but couldn't recognise him at all.
I thought when he saw us, he might come by and say hello....sadly his decision to ignore us is affirmed by his action tonight. I think it is good as this will not disturb the children, actually I feel I need to thank him for this. Otherwise, I have to worry the post effect of seeing him again after 3 years.
So sad or so glad, what is the answer ? Or I should go to another restaurant next time...
It has happened finally...I don't look forward to it anymore. It's really tough for me, I can't deal with this emotion swift. Me and the kids are coping well with our lives now.
2 comments:
Sounds like a positive shift for you and the children. I wish all of you the best - may you live and love well.
Hi, your post is very poignant. I can feel your situation. Your story reminds me of the truth that life moves on and doesn't halt for anyone and neither the earth stops revolving for any anyone. So the ultimate mission of life is to move on and face boldly (and even accept calmly) what bad it has to offer and thus enjoy every moment of it.
Regards,
Rajib
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